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yep... [15 Apr 2004|12:59am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

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lyrics... [09 Apr 2004|11:47pm]
[ mood | loved ]

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

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survey thingy.. [04 Apr 2004|11:59pm]
1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: "Hyuk,Hyuk," Valentine said, " where are mother and father?"

2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? The air...

3) What is the last thing you watched on TV?
The end of the LDS General Conference.

4) WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.1:00am

5) Now look at the clock, what is the actual time? 1:05am

6) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? My dad snoring

7) When did you last step outside? what were you doing? I was walking to my house from shane's car yesterday....

8) Before you came to this website, what did you look at? my email

9) What are you wearing? my pajamas

10) Did you dream last night?Yes

11) When did you last laugh? When I was watching a movie today I think...

12) What is on the walls of the room you are in? paint...

13) Seen anything weird lately? You mean my sister? Yep!

14) Last movie you saw?In a theater?  The Prince and Me.

15) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? clothes.. oh how greedy I am.

16) Tell me something about you that I don't know. I... like to hold pop concerts in my room with the only performer being me myself and I.

17) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? don't know

18) Do you like to dance?yes

19) George Bush:is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years? I actually don't care... how... selfish of me?

20) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Emilee Taylor or Rebekah Jadie.
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Not that you care but here's my week [03 Apr 2004|02:19pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

Alright lets see...

Monday: I can barely remember but I believe I went to school and I think that's it.

Tuesday: I went to school and then I met Emilee's Older brother Shane and we went to starbucks, hung out at his house and then we decided at the last minute to go and eat at Five Guys. I didn't have much luck with my burger. It was really messy but I did get Shane to eat letuce and tomatos! hehe

Wednesday: I went to school and didn't have the best day ( all the reality of my absences creeped in) So after school Daria,being the awesome friend that she is took me to Barns and Nobles and helped me finish most of my make up work. I really appriciated that Daria thanks. Then I went to IHOP and home because I was too tired to go to youth activity.

Thursday had to be the worst out of the whole week. It was a B day for one and I was able to make it through most of it. At last block Mr. Miller got really mad at some of the people in our class.

It was scary because I have never seen him that upset before. It put me in a bad mood. Mr. Miller's a great teacher and I can't stand it when people do stupid things in our class to make him mad.

Then I had to stay after school for chemistry and make up a test that took me about 2 hours to do. Since I wasn't there I didn't know any of the material. Im actualy really lucky my teacher was willing to sit and help me through the math. I felt kinda bad afterwards though because as patient as he was with me I was being really snotty towards him because I was so pissed I had to do it. I've also been really tired this week. After that and a couple of errands I went stright to bed.

Yesterday (Friday): I went to school for a half day and then went over to Shane's a little later to watch MOULIN ROUGE! He said he liked it so I hope he really did lol. I hadnt seen it in such a long time and I was signing along.

After that we made a special prank call to my dear Becky lol with lots of help from Jenn. I think Shane did a good job. Then I changed his desktop to an adorbale little child.*smirks*

Then I went at midnight with him his mom and Emilee to see the movie the Prince and Me in Centerville. It was an ok movie but I was dozing of I guess just from being so tired over the week. It was a great night though I had a lot of fun with Shane!:)

Today I'm gunna go to Potomic Mills with Shane. This should be interesting....


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random rent memory... [02 Apr 2004|04:45pm]
[ mood | good ]

Your Eyes
As We Said Our Goodbyes
Can't Get Them Out Of My Mind
And I Find I Can't Hide (From)
Your Eyes
The Ones That Took Me By Surprise
The Night You Came Into My Life
Where There's Moonlight
I See Your Eyes

How'd I Let You Slip Away
When I'm Longing So To Hold You
Now I'd Die For One More Day
'Cause There's Something I Should
Have Told You
Yes There's Something I Should Have
Told You

When I Looked Into Your Eyes
Why Does Distance Make Us Wise?
You Were The Song All Along
And Before The Song Dies

I Should Tell You I Should Tell You
I Have Always Loved You
You Can See It In My Eyes

soo beautiful....

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<font size"1">here's my last poem... yea I know you're all so excited to read it</font>
[29 Mar 2004|10:41pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

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<font size"1">I’m Watching you.
You walk in.
You smile.
I think you’ll stay awhile
I’m watching you.

You speak
You stay
I love your way
I’m watching you.

I listen closely to your words
With clear and open mind.
Your spirit fills the room with hope,
serenity divine.

Watching you with careful eye.
Waiting faithfully,I sigh and
wonder- if you’ll notice me.
Guess I’m just not great to see.

I wonder if you watch-
as much as I watch you.
Could it be that you don’t know
The wonders that you do.

Yet always in my eye you lie.
Impatiently again,I sigh.
I’m watching you.

You turn your head.
You hear my sigh.
You watch me softly by and by
I sit and wait for your reply.
And I’m still watching you...
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I did this long ago but I am bored so...forgive me [28 Mar 2004|11:46pm]
hair - blonde
eyes -green
height -5'4"

wearing - pj's
thinking of - how much a really wanna ask this guy out.. and how much school sucks

kill - no one
hear from - uh.. anyone
get really wasted with - no one
tickle - ^^
look like -myself....

touched - um....Katie
talked to - my mom
hugged - katie
instant messaged- shane
kissed - probbaly my mommy or my daddy!
who broke your heart- no one *cough*

Dated one of your best friends - I guess you could put it that way
Loved somebody so much it makes you cry - yes
Broken the law - im sure
Ran away from home - for like 10 minutes
Broken a bone - no
Cheated on a test - no
Skinny dipped - no
Played Truth Or Dare - duh...
Flashed someone - well...
Mooned Someone - hehe
Kissed someone you didn't know - no
Been on a talk show/Game show - nah
Been in a fight - verbally yea
Ridden in a fire truck - no *pouts*
Been on a plane - yeah
Come close to dying - I almost got hit by a bus once
Cheated on your Boy/Girlfriend - no
Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride - yes
Eaten a worm/mud pie - no
Kissed Someone- yes
Swam in the ocean - ys
Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up - yea...the skary ones are the ones that you cant wake up

I cut it down for your sanity.:)
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here's my second poem...yea know it sucks ok? [28 Mar 2004|11:18pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

Popular Boy

Popular boy,what do you do
To make people fall in love with you?

It is your hair or what you wear?
What makes it so that people care?

Popular boy what do you do
to make people follow you?

It it your voice soft and sweet?
Is it the way you move your feet?

Whatever it is, you can’t be beat.
For every time you hit the street, your style is so complete.

Popular boy do you know
The people you touch, the things you show?

Do you know we’re watching you?
Do you know the things you do?

Popular Boy we can’t compare.
Is there really a secret there?

We’re grateful for all you know.
Even when we’re a little slow.

Popular boy, you are our model.
Though we see you through a bottle.

We see your life like a dream.
But things aren’t always as they seem.

Popular boy, I must confess
you’re really no different from all the rest.

Though it may seen like it’s just you.
I know these people are watching me too!

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random lyrics.... [28 Mar 2004|09:31pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

I wanna be perfect,
But I'm me
I wanna be flawless,
But you see
Every little crack
Every chip,
Every dent
Every little mistake,
I wanna be perfect
Just like you,
But there's only so much that a girl can do
When I look in the mirror,
It makes sense to me,

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random thoughts I'm throwing out there... [25 Mar 2004|11:11pm]
[ mood | rejected ]

If you are even actually paying attention heed not to this it is meerly all the things in my head slammed into an entry and I just need to get things out so I can see them. So go on continue and scroll down cause you are scrolling now anyways no doubt.

~I wish I lived a different life.
~I hope Daria's ok...She's been a really good friend to me this year.
~ I'm so inmature and selfish.
~I hate B days
~I don't want the weekend either because there's nothing to do.
~I'm a lazy ungrateful brat.
~It seems like time is going slowly and quickly at the same time.
~Im gunna miss the seniors.
~I still like Josh... sad huh? And to think I don't care how many people know anymore because they all just think I'm stupid for it. I don't care about what they think either.

~I'm glad I can count on at least one person when my best friend has found better.Strange thing is I care but not enough to bother doing something. What's done with that is done. I guess we are just different people. Either I changed,you changed,or here's a refreshig new thought we both did. Sorry...
~I long to find a person who feels the way I do.

~Truth is I don't know how I feel.
~I also don't know why I'm crying.
~I wish I could understand why my world seems to be falling apart.
~I seem to be normal. I have a family.I have a house to live in,food to eat, my own room. Then why the hell do I feel this way? Why? I just wish I could understand myself.
~I think my whole life has been a huge act.
~This act seems to become more and more fake as days go on and I start realizing how different I am from everyone else.
~I don't want to be different... but I am. And I won't change myself... maybe that's my problem...

I think that's about it....Thanks to those that read...

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so.... [25 Mar 2004|07:55pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Is this not the most adorbale thing you've ever seen? http://www.edelweissdotjesse.com/jordanmccoy.youaretheone.mpg

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I'm sure you don't care but... [25 Mar 2004|05:56pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

Here's a poem I just wrote.

Why This Guy?

There’s something in everyone.
Something words cannot describe.
There’s a special part of everyone.
What’s so special about this guy?

No one knows exactly why he is so liked.
It’s more a feeling then a description.
Why is he so right?

His pesence fills the room with joy.
With every step he takes;
A new meaning to life appears.
It seems he cannot break.

Such a special feeling;
When I see him fills my heart.
Never spoke a word to large.
And always been apart.

This Guy,I think I know him.
Though reality impares.
Knowing seems all to a dream.
For all I give are stares.

What’s so special about this guy?
Well I may never know.
Yet in his presence, I feel joy.
I’ll never let it go.

This is number one for Mr. Millers poetry project I have to wirte three on a person or place I'm observing.


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I know you dont care but read it! hehe [20 Mar 2004|11:33am]
[ mood | amused ]

season: summer
type of weather: hott!
emotion: boredum.. is that an emotion?
thing to do on a half day: sit on my butt
late-night activity: internet
sport: if I had to choose I like soccer and basketball
store: uh Rave..last store i went to
cried: last night
played a sport: uh... not since gym last year
laughed: a cuple of minutes ago
hugged someone: uh.. hmm Ithink megan hugged me yesterday I'm lacking hugs
kissed someone: haha wow long tim ago
felt depressed: recently all the time
felt elated: every day
felt overworked: every day
faked sick: uh..hmm last year

word you said: little
thing you ate:I'm eating a meatball sub
song you listened to: " how sweet it is to be a loved be you..."
thing you drank: fresca
place you went to: chior festival
movie you saw: I Wanna Marry Ryan Banks
movie you rented: "uh... i dunno, maybe i should go pay a visit to tim at work" LO me too
concert you attended: attended.. probably my sisters chior concert in december

hugged: I think it was megan...
cried over: my life
kissed: probably my mommy or daddy
danced with: dont even remember.. i going to a dance tonight
shared a secret with: Justin.. I think Nothing I ever say is a secret because I like everyone to know what's up
had a sleepover with: Becky and Jenn.. I think
called: Justin
went to a movie with: Chris,Justin,Zsazsa awhile ago...I hated the movie too
saw: um my mom and my sister
were angry with: my dad
couldn't take your eyes off of: hehehehe Josh and Greg... I saw Greg today by his house *faints*
obsessed over: hehehehehehe no one....*looks around*

danced in the rain: yes!
kissed someone: yep
done drugs: whehn I'm sick
drank alcohol: no
slept around: no I'm a pure child
partied 'til the sun came up: yea...
had a movie marathon: yes
gone too far on a dare: no
spun until you were immensely dizzy: of course

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All my thoughts are coming out now!(directed to one person so don't get confused) [17 Mar 2004|10:44pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

I only hope you take notes on what I say because I'm tired of this. And I hope you will read everything.

I am not nor have I ever been disapointed in you. That makes it sound like I'm your mom and you stole a cookie from the cookie jar so I'm disapointed. I do not nor have I ever thought that I am better than you. What hurts me is that you think I do.

Why do you feel like I'm judging you. I don't understand it. I don't judge you I love you and I wish that you knew that. I wish you didn't always feel like I'm looking down on you. I was worried about you yes but that worring about something you were doing went from worrying about losing you and I've cryed to many nights over it. I'm crying even as I type this. I lost you! I lost my best friendand it hurts,especially since the move.

Do you know how much I miss you? Do you even care? I stopped feeling like you cared and that's why I'm acting the way I am,not because I'm mad so disregard Justins comments because he doesn't know what I feel or why I'm upset only I can really know.

Why did it change. I thought we were best friends now all of the sudden everything I do looks judgemental. (I always looked like a snob remember*trys to laugh*) I just wish we could be as close as we were,but we havn't done anything in months and we are not close anymore. We went from being best friends to someone we just say hi to in the hallways.

Yes I'm jelous of Rissa. You want to know why, because she is now your best friend I feel like I was just pushed aside.All of the sudden your life got all too buzy and decided not to include me in it. I miss you. I used to talk to you about everything and now I don't feel like we are being honest at all it's all just one huge act.

You are the central reason for why I'm so stressed and why I've been sick etc. I'm depressed I've been sleeping all to much and not eating enough and all because I'm stressed over you. Didn't know you meant that much did you? Well you do. Don't you get it. You're my best friend I'm not letting go of you without a fight. I thought we were twins... but what's the point now you hate me... and I hate me too for letting you ever think that I don't care. I do care and always will.

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eh.. [17 Mar 2004|06:52pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

The doctors office called today and want me to call them tomorow. I bet they found more stuff in my tests. There really is something wrong with me. Pray for me please.

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Haven't done one of these in awhile.... [17 Mar 2004|12:22am]
[ mood | grumpy ]

[x] they call me: Jordyn
[x] sex: female
[x] status: single
[x] occupation: junior in high school

[x] song: Never Had a Dream Come True
[x] radio station: Oldies 100.3
[x] tv show: American Idol!
[x] channel: fox, fox family,disney
[x] site: http://www.mojosistersonline.cjb.net/
[x] movie: Freaky Friday
[x] store: rave, wet seal, AE, AF,limited too... the list goes on
[x] actor: Ewen Mcgregor.. still!
[x] actress: Hilary Duff, Dakota Fanning
[x] food: mac and cheese
[x] book: - I like magazines but I guess the scriptures ( like the bible)

[x] love is: what is love?
[x] love or lust?: love
[x] is it possible to be in love with more than one person at the same time?: nope not in love there's a difference to loving someone and being in love with someone
[x] when love hurts, you: get depressed
[x] true or false: all you need is love: false though it would be nice.
[x] last crush: Josh... As everyone in the world knows. *rolls eyes* and I think Greg is unbelivebly gorgeous but I would call it a crush.

[x] turn ons: personality, you have to be funny but also mature and considerate, cute works also *winks*
[x] turn offs: lack of personality, serious all the time, inmaturity, uglyness...
[x] does your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: not really
[x] what kinda hair style?: short
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: Sing to me! I would die if a guy sang a song to me from the heart I wouldn't care how awful it sounded.

yep.. bed time....</color>

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WHAT IS MY PURPOSE? [15 Mar 2004|12:20am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

I just hate myself! I hate the way I'm living and I hate what's happening around me. I'm tired of it all. I just want to lock myself in a room and cry and cry and cry some more!!!!!!

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pointless entry... [14 Mar 2004|04:40pm]
Hmm actually now I'm considering all my entries pointless. I hate my life!
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hmm... [10 Mar 2004|04:43am]
[ mood | gloomy ]

I really havn't updated much lately for a couple of reasons...

Reason #1:There's nothing going on.
Reason #2:You don't care ether way.

I'm really lazy I'm slacking in class and I'm skipping out on make up work, which is a result of my many absences. I have no intention to do this work ether. This is not because I'm lazy but simply because I was not in class and I have know idea how to even start most of it.

Some of my absences were career related because this month is manager month and I'm working my butt off for this audition. I've never been more commited to anything in my entire life and I'm not about to draw back here. A lot of them though were actually from being so tired and stressed. I've had an on and off stomach bug. I've also feel really weak all the time even after all the sleep I've gotten.

I feel like it was a huge accomplishment for me just to make it through school today without asking to go home. I'm depressed and tired and stressed and I really just don't care anymore...

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so cute! [05 Mar 2004|11:15am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

This is soooo sweet I just can't stand it I love it!

A girl asked a boy if she was pretty. He said no. She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever. He said no. She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away. He again said no. She had heard too much. She needed to leave. As she walked away, he grabbed her arm and told her to stay. He said, "You're not pretty, you're BEAUTIFUL, I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would DIE.

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